Wild Beaver Saloon

Someone told me long ago, there clam before the storm.

Sorry for the lack of up dates, I've been way to tired. Thursday I had some of the most fun I've had in sometime, And it's a good feeling when people come to see the work that you've done and get a reaction like we did, and it wasn't even the final edit. And it's that trill that make me love this life, now I just have to figure out a way to get that to happen more often and I'll keep you posted on the Air Date.

So on to Life

To be honest isn't that bad, I have money coming in now, still no social life to speak of, and I'm still having Girl issues. Not bad girl issues, just I like really like someone and they do know this and we keep talking alot, but the catch is she has a boy friend. I don't know what going on. And how he can't be getting pissed that we are talking this much. Like it goes against my moral code to have even told her I liked her while she has a bf. I don't want to be the one to break them up. But like I'm being strait forward to her with how I feel, and she seems to like it. So I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

One thing lead to another we were young And we would scream together songs unsung

I've got some big plans set in motion and some big ideas. It's just going to take some time. So hopefully I can get out of this depressed state I've been in for the past month. I guess it's good that I have hope. Lets make it happen Captain!

Sympathy for the Devil - Supernatural Season Premiere (SPOILERS)

Supernatural did what it does best, it brought you to the edge of your seat right away. Picking up right where the lack luster Season 4 finally left off. Sam and Dean find them selves right in front of the open devils gate, from here the thrills never stop. The tension is strong between two brothers, seeing how things will play out with Sam and Dean will be interesting. At the end of Last season we saw them torn apart by Sam's decisions, that eventually lead to Sam releasing Lucifer from the pit. The title of the Premiere really suits the episode, it introduces you to Lucifer's host, a man in his mid 30's who's wife and family were brutally murdered, the devil promises him justice for what God has done. This premiere sets up quite a few interesting plot lines, including Dean being the Chosen host of the Angel Michael, Dean and Sam going their separate ways, the return of the demon Meg, and the suggestion of a Higher power then the angels on the Side of our Heroes. I'f You've never watched Supernatural this is not a jumping on point at all, but Season Four is on dvd now, you can pick it up and be on you're way, but if you're like me start from season one and become a fan of one of the most cinematic shows on television.

For a full episode description Go here

http://www.tv.com/supernatural/sympathy-for-the-devil/episode/1279927/recap.html?tag=episode_recap;recap

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for the full episode and full series

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Do you remember when we use to dance, and incidence arose from circumstance

So it's been a fun few weeks, not really, It sucks because I would really like to keep this going, there I was going at it ever day because I had something to tell. Here recently there hasn't been anything really tell worthy. And I mean this in a day to day basis, because lord knows I have stories to last a life time and I wish to tell the world all of them I can. Know there have been a few personal things that have happened but for once I'm not telling the world my problems. I'll just have to deal with them my self. Think of it as a Crisis of Faith, but when someone like me, who doesn't believe in god has a Crisis of faith what is it. Am I really the person I think I am, do my morals still stand, does the way I think of my self with my friends still hold as relevant now that everyone has gone our separate ways. At one point I would be at any of your sides at a moments notice, no matter the distance, and I've always have tried to be the friend that you all deserve. So if I've seemed different this past week or so, it's because I've really been thinking about this, It's a code I've lived by for years and part of it feels like it's been shattered.

Ah work at 4pm - 1am lovely.

One look from you and I would fall from grace

So Life suck right now, or should I say the lack there of. There really isn't anything new in my life at all it's boring. I'm just trying to told on to the things that make me sane. I really need to do something thats not work. I need just get away for a while. With out any contact with people, nothing to worry me. I thought coming back to Indy would help me find my self again but I was wrong. Yeah you are my muse but I can't stay here.

I'm tired oh so very tired

Not just because Walmart, which isn't that bad I like the people I'm working with defiantly a group of characters, but Life right now is just making me tired. I need that one thing to brighten up the world and actually make it worth my time. I have no clue what it could be, maybe a social life which is out of the question because of my working hours at walmart. Maybe I just need to get the fuck out of Indy. Which I'll be a few hundred closer to now that I'm not going to go up to Michigan any time soon. So my plan is to save up about $4000 and get the hell out of here. It's sad I'm only 21 and don't see my self having fun anytime so, and I know I still young but I feel so old. I'm out of school, while most of my friends are still going, it's difficult. It's like my life is kicking me in my ass and I can't get moving. Alot of the time I compare my self to the Doctor, I see my self taking my friends and escaping to worlds unknown, but in reality of sorts I need the Doctor for my self, I need some adventure in my life.