Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Well I'm pretty sure I have some kind of sleeping disorder, I can only get a few hours of sleep at a time, not fun. But To my point of this today, Have you ever liked someone and they don't share the same feelings for you that you do them. Well thats the story of my life, ad not that it's a bad thing, and I can't hold that against them. I've made some bad choices when it comes to my actions with relationship. Mainly when it comes to speaking my mind. When I have feelings for someone I'm not afraid to say any, now is that a bad thing? I don't know. But for the first time, I honestly would do anything for this person just not to lose her as a friend. Part of me hates the fact that I can't keep my feelings to myself then again, usually only bring it up to make them feel better, but then it goes from being me trying to help, to me basically making a fool out of my self, and instead of making things better, I make them worse. I'm not upset I just wish there was something that I could do that would make it better. My feelings here don't really matter, I would love to be able to move on, but I've tried and I just end up in the same spot time after time. I just have a way of picking them I guess. Why is it that a guy like me with an unwavering moral code that live my life by can't seem to get a head in life, I'm good guy, right? So why is it when I try to help the people I care about, I make it worse for them.