Allons-y!

So I know I'm a bit late for this.

Well 2009 is Over, what a year! One that I'm not likely for get anytime soon. I got to meet so many brilliant people, many of which became friends. I can't even being to tell you all about my year, hell thats what this blog is for right? It's been Up and Down.

One thing that stands out for me, is I got obsessed with a show call Doctor Who. Which I have to say helped me through this year. Never has a show done this to, I feel this show has made me a better person, I've found a new Role Model in a time I need inspiration. Well I would feel down I would have a friend to push me to be better, then I am. Which could come from my feeling of not ever feeling like I fit in while I was in Florida, so I found some thing to make the last few months there more bearable. And as my life changed though out the year so did my adventures with the Doctor. As my readers know a few months ago I got really depressed, not leaving my room for days, I was in such a dark place come Thanksgiving. I felt even more connected to the show.

Then comes Decemeber, after such a hard few months my life is finally looking up. I'm starting to feel like a new Man. I've done some things that I'm not proud of this year, and hurt people I love, I'm done with that, I've done what I could to make things better, and what an End to the Year and a great start for 2010. The Doctor that made me fall in love with this show, is no more, he regenerated in to a new man, and I'm excited to see where this new Doctor takes me, and my own Adventures for 2010 which are looking to be Fantastic!

"The Needs of them Many out weigh the needs of the Few or the One" - Mr. Spock

Andrew Crowley:

Buddy not much to say really, you are a brother to me. This might sound gay as hell but you know how to take me go from feeling like hell, to putting a smile on my face. I love you buddy.

Chris Danz:

Kinda the same as Andrews, but I wouldn't have made it in florida with out you, and having you here in Indy makes being back home so much easier. I know it sounds gay but I consider you Family.

Chance Hoover:

Buddy, there isn't anyone else I would rather go to when I need help, you are always there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on. love you bud

Mat and Heather Smith:

You both have made my time home interesting, some times tiring. Mainly because Mat you Always seem to call when I'm either sleeping, trying to get to sleep, or just gotten to sleep, lol but I still love you both.

Jake Westmoreland:

We need to hang out more then we do, but I know I can always count on you.

Edsel:

Nuff Said!! Our History says it all.

There are so Many other people in my life Friends and Family that have made this year what it was. I've done what I can to start to try to get close to some again, and I've pushed some away to where I'm surprised they even talk to me, since they can't stand the thought of seeing me. Which hurts more then not talking. Then there are Some That I never would have thought I'd see again.

To 2010 ALLONS-Y!!!!!

Tribute to what came before....

and a look at what is left to come....

if you're lost you can look and you will find me

Well I'm pretty sure I have some kind of sleeping disorder, I can only get a few hours of sleep at a time, not fun. But To my point of this today, Have you ever liked someone and they don't share the same feelings for you that you do them. Well thats the story of my life, ad not that it's a bad thing, and I can't hold that against them. I've made some bad choices when it comes to my actions with relationship. Mainly when it comes to speaking my mind. When I have feelings for someone I'm not afraid to say any, now is that a bad thing? I don't know. But for the first time, I honestly would do anything for this person just not to lose her as a friend. Part of me hates the fact that I can't keep my feelings to myself then again, usually only bring it up to make them feel better, but then it goes from being me trying to help, to me basically making a fool out of my self, and instead of making things better, I make them worse. I'm not upset I just wish there was something that I could do that would make it better. My feelings here don't really matter, I would love to be able to move on, but I've tried and I just end up in the same spot time after time. I just have a way of picking them I guess. Why is it that a guy like me with an unwavering moral code that live my life by can't seem to get a head in life, I'm good guy, right? So why is it when I try to help the people I care about, I make it worse for them.

Lucifer Rising & Doomsday SPOILER WARNING

Now right a way those are the two very looming titles for last nights Supernatural and Smallville, both of which Rocked is the easiest way of saying it. Now I know not many people watch Smallville and the ones that don't all talk shit about it, but It is a really good show, not the best out there but it's better then the other super heroes show out there, but it's on the CW so people can just say shit about it. And the same goes for Supernatural it's right after Smallville on the CW so again people are reluctant to say anything good. Supernatural is one the most cinematic  shows on TV and it never gets the credit. Smallville had some rough seasons and those almost killed the show but this season proved to be one for the ages. 

Lucifer Rising, the season 4 Finally of Supernatural is one of the best they've had, ( Spoiler warning: none of the Winchesters die. It's a first for the show, ok season 1 but one died in the season premiere of season 2, but this time it left you feeling that season 5 is the season to watch, with the title of the episode, you can guess the out come, now all the seals but one have been broken and it's up to Sam And Dean to stop it, but this time they aren't working together after last weeks episode, But Sam has gone down the dark road to hell, while Dean has chosen to give him self up to the Angles of the Lord. Only Dean knows that Lilith is the final Seal and if she's killed Lucifer will rise. Well long story short Dean doesn't stop Sam in time and he kills Lilith breaking Lucifer out of the Pit. Leaving Sam and Dean at Ground Zero. So I'm hoping this next seasons picks up right here and not jump 4 months down the road. But I have I hopes, It could really be something to remember and look up to. If you haven't watched it please do it.

Doomsday, the Season 8 Finally of Smallville, was to say the least Bad ass, You've got the Justice League, Legion of Super Heroes and The Watch Tower. ( Which looks like the old set from Birds of Prey) Now it wasn't really all fun, one of the staples in the Superman Mythos Jimmy Olsen get murdered by Doomsdays human side, which proves to Clark that sometimes not everyone is worth saving. Green Arrow knew this and tried to do it right with the help of Impulse and Black Canary, but Clark couldn't see it that way until his Pal is killed. And Some way Lois is sent to the Future, by Clark's Legion Ring. The Episode concludes with Jimmy's Funeral, which has the League in attendance, and then to the Watch Tower in which Clark tells Chloe that he has to take up his mantle and leave his friends behind so they don't get hurt. Then the final Shot is At Lex's mansion, the Orb lights up and a Purple glow takes over the Mansion and a body appears In the middle of the Letter Z. Last seen when ZOD was taking over Lex