"These Are the Voyages"

" These Are the Voyages of the Star ship Enterprise

It's continuing mission to explore strange new worlds,

to seek out new life and civilizations,

To Boldly Go Where No Man Has Gone Before"

Captains Log

Star Date: 63366.1

So were do I begin,

I guess an update on my diet is in order, well Like most people figured I haven't done the Best I could with it, Mainly because no would take it seriously, and since I still depend on my parents for food and such, and they have no faith in me, and keep buying food I ask them not to, but ok when they don't buy me the foods I ask for its kinda hard, I'm still trying to walk/run my 3miles daily and work out, but With that I also lacked motivation, It's mainly because I would love a work out partner, someone to shape my self up against. So where I'm getting at is that, after the holidays I'm starting Fresh. I'm still going to do this so called half-assed routine, but I'm ready to go full Force, which Leads me in to my next point to make on this days fun filled blog.

So I'm no longer on Speaking terms with Jackie, believe me it's not for the lack trying to talk to her, But Fuck I Fucked up. I know that. I had a moment of weakness and let my emotions get the best of me. I went to her to vent to, and I guess she didn't like what I Had to say. I know I took what she said and Blew it out of the water, so I made some wrong choices after I blew up, and she said she didn't want to continue this friendship then the following morning, I did nothing but try to talk to her and get right with her. Then she told me to stop contacting her, and I just responded "well fuck you to then, and why did I even bother with you in the first place." not the best choice in words. So

fuck my life, right now I don't want anything then to talk to her, I know I'm the worst fucking friend in the whole world. Quick Question, to EVERYONE, am I really that hard to be friends with?

Jackie,

If you are reading this, I'm sorry, I was pissed when I had no reason to be and said things I didn't mean. If we don't talk, I don't want it to be like this. We are both adults and I'm ready to act like it.

Ok On to other News I only have about 20 Pages left in my note book that I've been keeping for 4 years come April. It's a weird Feeling, when it's done I don't want to keep it so If there are any takers on this, please let me know, and I'll give it to you. Basically anything that

you could ever want to know, about me it's in there, things I've never told anyone you can find out in here, it's a chapter in my life that I'm closing when this book is done.

Thanks For the Time

And Thanks for being there for me.

- David West

My BIG 50th POST: WARNING CONTAINS HARSH IMAGES

Besides still not working nothing much going on in my life right now thats really anything to talk about, So I have to make my life a little interesting.

So the guys over on the Jinxworld forum started a Little thread call,

"How overweight are you, and do you care?"

And this got me really thinking, I read through the entire thread and It really inspired me to finally do something about it. My weight has always bugged me and has caused me to have some huge self-esteem issues, that I mainly try to keep to my self. But it's time that I fix this, I'm not looking to get ripped or anything I just want to slim down and feel good about the way I look, Now I've always been a big guy so I'm use to being large but In my opinion I don't look to bad for my weight I'm about 310 pounds 6ft tall, now I've seen people that weigh about the same and are about the same hight as me and look alot worse. I would like my goal to be about 260 by the end of January

Now I really don't have a clear plan on doing this but for the last two days, I've walked/ Jogged about 3 miles a day, I plan on doing this on a daily basis, I'm cutting soda out of my daily intake as well as my late night snacking. I would love to be able to be able to jog or even run the entire length buy the end of the month if that is at all possible. I'm still going to be doing this for sure over the weekend, while coming up with a workout that is right for me.

Here are a few Pictures to give you nightmares so Turn Back now if you want to save you're eyes, I'm going to be doing this about once a week or once every two week to give you all a visual update.

GO NOW!!! SAVE YOUR SOUL!!!!

A Song For the wait.

LAST CHANCE

You were warned

oops used that title before = 49

so, life... Yeah Life. Hooray

the Last few days have been really fun yet still very depressing, I've hung out with the best friends a guy could ask for, but something is missing. I'm just tired of being Single, Tired of not having any money, tired of living my life this way. I feel Like a fucking bum.

Tonight was good tho, I got to see Momma Rieberg, gave her a few big Hugs, which was nice, but I think seeing her just made me miss her more, but her production of Godspell was really good, great cast!!!

I'm Bored out of my mind= 48!

Hopefully I have a job by the end of week, because well I need money and I bored to death. Hell I'm so bored I cleaned my room, yeah I should have done it months ago but I didn't. I've applied to every job I can think of, that has an online application. I've e-mail my resumes out to more place then I can count, I need something!!! BIG TIME. I shaved my head and I really wish I wouldn't have, at least my hair grows quick, but I fucking miss it. =( And the only reason I did it was because I was in a hurry and couldn't get it to do what I wanted it to. So I got pissed off and cut it all off. Go Me. Short sweet, nothings really going on in my life, well besides the normal money issues and the every growing loneliness. So at this rate my 50th post is going to be kinda lackluster.